For e 1st time……
April 20, 2006 by jkpooh
wel.. 2day started off w a sleepy day.. wel.. i am so sleepy but had 2 drag myself up frm my bed n gt off 2 wk is a torturin tin 2 do.. bt wat cn i say.. i dn hav a choice.. i reali hardly sleep… coz i always dreamt.. as if im watchin moive.. wel.. bt den tats nt e quality sleep i am havin.. tats y im so tired..
wel.. bt den at wk im so quite ok.. at least i manage 2 see him… wel.. my patient also nt 2 busy.. so in e end i go ard helpin.. wel.. e ward is like a mad hse.. amm or should i say e whole level 2?? all icu r full.. e patient r mostly intubated and therefore there is no way out for them.. wel.. reali wonder wat happen.. if a patient reali nd icu care.. wat wil happen?? wel.. i dn knw n i dn care… coz my duty is 2 take care of patient.. so e rest leave it 2 e persn who cn handle it..
wel.. i was so settled tat i tot i could go for my break.. bt den u knw in life accident or should i say special events does happen… wel..i was called in 2 OT 2 help them settle sm chartin tin.. huh.. i was so blur bt den i juz went ahead…
wen i step into e OT… i realise they r as busy n full.. so mani patient in e recovery.. wel.. e recep staff either 2 busy or wat.. gave me a unclear instruction tat i felt so piss off.. i tot im suspose 2 cn n offer my help.. bt den cn any1 pls tel me where 2 go.. wel.. in e end i finali found e place im suspose 2 b..
its actuali a patient who is waitin 2 cm 2 ICU being nursed in recovery.. so as wat our dear diamond dr wanted.. e OT gals hav 2 do e ICU chart which they r reali nt familiar w.. so here i am there teachin them… bt den i suspose its they 1st time in contact w this super confusin chart tat all of them looked lost.. wel. so i did my best 2 help them.. wel.. in e end.. i managed to leave my patient n stay back in OT 2 help out in e nursin of e patient..
It is reali my 1st TIME in my 4 year of ICU life tat i stepped in 2 OT n nurse a patient there… wel.. i guess there would b much chances also.. its a strange yet interesting experience… wel.. e staffs there r nice.. wel.. n also he was there 2…tats makes my stay more worthwhile..
bt den until tis stupid woman in black.. hai i shall nt mention her name here… (its 2 sensitive) wel.. she say smtin tat i was quite affected… its makes me reali feel stupid.. its makes me wonder y am i there offerin my help.. i juz feel stupid.. hai.. its so useless of me.. being a emotional persn— my tears drop.. wel… of coz i didnt drop my tears in front of her.. coz it makes me more stupid.. wel i also tried my best 2 fight back my tears bt den it juz rolled dwn my cheek… hai reali so useless.. For e 1st TIME i cried in front of him…i wonder if he had seen tat.. reali hope nt.. wel..anyway i had bring up e issue back 2 sis… hai .. i was reali angry.. v v v angry… until no words could reali describe…
wel.. i am v sure tat im nt at fault.. i was juz angry n affect by wat she had say..wel.. she juz ruined my whole nice day.. if without tis incident i would b sure its a nice day… wel.. coz he was there w me..
anyway i juz need a place 2 ventilated.. if nt i would go crazy..
pooh is nt hapi 2day… ;(
