joy 2 e world…..
December 24, 2006 by jkpooh
merry xmas… 1 yr passes again.. xmas is a festival of present n wishes… nt mani present for me.. bt den i reali thx those who had given me… showers gels n lotion.. my fav pooh ornaments.. (thx 2 little gals.. nv fail 2 rem tat pooh is my fav.. )… clothings (practical)… keypouch.. n e 1 i like best… addidas sportbra.. (most practical.. n it fits me wel… i love it… thx gal…).. had e same xmas eve dinner at my sis hse.. as usual.. bt den tis yr e salmon nt up 2 standard.. disappointin leh.. nvm.. ltr we wil b out for more.. cheerss…
e past week was terrible for me… my mood is juz a e bottom of e pit.. it had been so long tat i had been thru tis… it was reali terrible.. i reali feel like dyin.. if onli i could juz slp n die.. tat would b reali gd…
wel.. him being a part of it.. bt den i had managed 2 gt thru it v fast.. afterall love is nt all in my life..e nex gtin 2 knw abt e 21 yrs old boy who suffered frm adv cancer… contributed 2 it.. i stil didnt gt 2 see e mother.. actuali wen i see her.. wat could i say?? i tin ii wil juz hug her n cry w her.. i guess cnt imagine it…
wel..nex i guess is PMS.. yes mayb…everyday… gg 2 wk… seein e pt make my mood reali low.. dn gt me wrong…nt tat i dn like my patient… bt den i guess im 2 emotional attached 2 my patient.. i gt sad wen i see e patient n family.. i knw im nt healthy bt den i juz cnt help it.. esp e patient tat come in e past week…
early of e week we admitted a lady.. who juz came in complain of headache.. n den boom she was unconscious.. leavin behind her husband n 4 children.. so sad.. without leavin a word n suddenly leave e world…
den is tis 28yrs gal who juz delivered a baby 2 weeks ago.. den suddenly complain of headache n den boom she was unconscious… tis case is sadder.. especially wen u see e family bringin e nt yet 2 weeks old baby gal in 2 c e patient.. n e family.. esp e patient mother.. she was talkin 2 me abt e pt.. it makes me more emotional.. i reali tried my v v best nt 2 cry in front of them coz its reali unprofessional..
den on sat.. we admitted a young patient who had n accident w a bus.. she was reali badly injuried… bleedin everywhere.. im sure she would b able 2 make it..
on e same night we admitted our previous auntie…she stayed w us for reali long.. we had did a lot for her.. n reali gt her back into gd shape… den she was transfer out for last den a week.. den she came back.. tis time round she is reali reali bad.. she wil sure die.. im sad.. i guess nt onli me.. mani others also feel e same.. bt wat 2 do.. tats life….
tat few days i was reali depressed.. ntin could bring my mood up… im so scared tat i wil go into state of depression….
tats y i reali tin tat holiday is a need… so if hc cnt make it for e planned holiday.. i would go myself… coz i nd a break…
