into pooh’s world…………

i started my fri morn gd… coz i cn wake up a bit ltr… reach e ward at 8 n went for e IRR tinggy… so hard 2 keep myself awake.. reali tryin hard 2 open my eyes… lucky there were more practical.. in fact e practical make me realised i had a lot of tin tat im confused.. hopefully all tin wil b sorted out soon… so everytin ended at 1130.. tin is stil a bit early so went back 2 e ward n see if any1 wanted 2 go for break…

e moment i step in n walk 2ward e counter…b4 i could open my mouth she ask me 2 update e pt file… please… im suspose 2 cm back ask if any1 wan 2 go break if nt i wil buy food.. den she was nt hapi i dn wan 2 help… i didnt say i dn wan help… bt is it fair for me… i didnt follow round.. n in fact i dn even knw w pt.. update wat???

as usual she is in her super PMS mood… so she is nt hapi i didnt wan 2 help.. n 2 make tin worst she added remark… den u dn shw up in e ward… please… for goddness sake.. gt tin clear… u r busy ur am as if im free… i didnt sit dwn shake my leg.. i went for my trainin n i had 2 cm back n wk til 5pm.. other ward they dn nd this.. im nt calculative.. bt if u wan 2 b i cn b… obviously she is nt hapi.. n me 2… i was reali unhapi.. she reali spoil my day… i was initiate havin gd mood.. n here she is… all ruin.. wat e fish… stupid woman.. tis kin of sis… for goddness sake.. pra ask me nt 2 b angry.. coz we knw her… ya i knw her pattern does nt means i hav 2 gt all tis craps frm her.. i dn care u r sis or nt…. if tins is nt right.. its nt right…

stupid me.. am i at fault also?? mayb i should juz keep quiet n b an obenient gal?? sory im nt… she reali spoil my day… EK was sayin im a fierce perceptor….. is it?? i dn care wat u all say as long as i knw it myself… im self conscious i dn hav 2 ans 2 u… i knw he is juz jokin bt den he had juz added more fuel 2 my anger… anyway thx L for sendin us home early.. if nt i reali cnt stand her face…

i had juz watch a movie… in e moive there is tis phrase… 2 let go… said is easier than done…

b it tis simple incident.. i wanted 2 let go or i shouldnt hav take it 2 hard… bt smtime e anger within u juz dn allow u 2 do so… of coz til tis moment i had let go.. im nt tat stupid.. bt den… i wil try 2 limit communication w her.. talk PRN onli k….

2 let go is definitely nv easy.., tis few years i had been tryin hard…….. n there is way 2 go… so jia you..

was talkin 2 Fiona.. she was reali a great gal.. didnt realised she is actuali 30… dn look like.. hw i wish i could be like her.. i reali enjoy talkin w her… hope 2 see her more…

e 2nd spoiler of e day was a nt so gd news… i had a ex colleague she is a reali nice gal.. a super nice n gentle gal i would say… tats y tat time wen she gt married we wil reali hapi for her.. den we knew she was pregnant we were also hapi for her…

who knw i had tat her baby was born down syndrome.. n 2 make tin worst.. baby had a congenital condition 2 make tin simple.. e baby had 2 had a hole 2 allow faeces 2 come out…. how could tat happen 2 her.. she is a reali nice gal.. i dn tin she deserve tis.. hw is she nw??  hw is she copin??? i dn knw… i reali pray n hope she is doin OK.. blessed u J…

tins r unpredictable.. so even such bad tin cn happen 2 such a nice gal.. wat abt me?? such a bad gal??? i dn dare 2 tin..

keep my blessin goin…