smtimes i reali wonder 2 myself.. y i bcame a nurse.. n in fact. hw cn i b nurse for so long.. 6-7yrs.. long enough??
wel.. i of coz hav my regrets… bt den thru these years i definitely had gained a lot… wel.. sure nt focused on these..
2day ICU is busy.. wel.. w a few newly admitted pt.. meanin havin 2 settled these pt.. bt den tats nt e end.. mani a times we had 2 settled e relatives..
of coz wen pt is in ICU.. pt is consider as Ill.. in fact if pt is nt ill wont even nd 2 stay in hosp let alone ICU.. 2 us every pt is ill.. bt den of coz we knw e priority… which pt is consider more ill den e other… bt den 2 relative of e pt they wil definitely regard their relative who is lyin on e ICU bed as e most sick…… wel.. understandable.. its juz normal.. coz pple tend 2 b worried n anxious.. or even stressful.. 2 us.. or mayb 2 me.. i fully understd.. its all bcoz of all these emotional stressor tat led 2 certain action like scoldin or barkin at nurses n doc…
of coz most of e time… we r e poor parties.. here we r tryin our best 2 provide e best care 2 e sick pt.. bt den on e other hand hav 2 try our best 2 also take care of e relatives emotional needs…
frankly speakin we nv expected them 2 b grateful 2 us.. coz it juz part of our duty.. bt den smtimes i reali hope tat they could also understd us more.. give us sm respect.. n nt juz yell at us.. bcoz they cnt control their anger… fear or stress..
2day i had experience 2 families…
e 1st families waited for dr 2 update them regardin their father (who is e pt) condition… bt den e dr was is busy smwhere out there could nt make it on time.. makin e poor relatives waitin.. therefore accumulatin unhappiness.. cm yellin at us nurses who is at e bedside.. wel wel.. we cnt juz turn away sayin we dn knw anytin.. coz they juz expected us 2 knw every single tin… wel.. caught in between e drs n relatives… smtimes we reali nd e act of communication 2 gt tins settled… at times we had 2 smile or even put ourselves dwn hopin e issue wil b settled… thankfully… i managed 2 talk 2 them n settle e issue…
den shortly after experience a kaypo relative.. who juz was 2 see wat is happenin 2 e nex door pt… of coz it is no wrong 2 b kaypo.. i also love 2 b kaypo.. bt den as a nurse who is e pt adovcate.. i had 2 protect my pt.. n ensure e privacy tat e pt deem is given even e pt might b unconscious or even unaware of e surrounding… so i had 2 intervene n ask e kaypo relative 2 excuse himself… im definitely sure tat e tone of my voice n e word used is nt offensive… who knws pple who is listenin is nt interpretin it correctly… shortly after e relative of e kaypo relative confronted me.. n say i should nt shout at e uncle n juz nt hapi w me.. wel wel.. at tat kin of situation.. there is no pt for me 2 agrue.. coz it wil led 2 more unhappiness.. e onli way is 2 step back n say sori.. of coz im nt at fault.. by sori is juz a way 2 allay e tension.. n put tin 2 a stop.. wel.. it seem she is nt hapi.. n even ask for my name.. wel.. i knw im nt in wrong i am nt scared 2 give my name 2 her.. i even shw her my nametag.. hopin she wil nt miss my name..
goddness… smtime i reali wonder do pple reali understd e job scope of a nurse….. bt den of coz.. i had learned 2 handle these situation nt frm textbook.. nt frm classes.. bt frm e day in day out experience… frankly speakin a nurse muz reali b thick skined enough 2 face all these.. if nt u wont b able 2 survive in tis line for long…
thru these years i had learned.. n of coz im stil learnin.. at times i wil also b worked out n gt myself unhapi or upset.. bt den tin abt it.. its juz nt worth…
im a nurse.. my duty at e bedside is 2 see my pt gt well n gt out of ICU.. i dn care if pple do give credit 2 us.. i knw it within myself if im doin a gd job or nt… so these is wat keeps me gg.. n frankly speakin.. tis kind of job satisfaction u wil nt b able 2 gt it any else where… believe me or nt?? it up 2 u……..
