cryin is after all nt easy…
August 27, 2008 by jkpooh
i cnt reali rem wen was my last time i reali had a gd cry.. as in.. 2 cry out n feel gd after tat…
2day my mood was terrible..
it was juz like e weather… rainin mayb had dampen my mood..
bt den i tin also bcoz..
i realised i had lost my thrumbdrive.. thrumbdrives 2 b actual.. all 3 of them.. hai i dn wish 2 elaborated.. coz it juz sound so stupid..n i am basically careless…….. of coz nt e cost of e thrumbdrive.. i cn easily go n buy 10 thrumbdrive.. bt den its everytin tat is w e it.. i was reali upset.. even thou i tried nt 2 shw.. anyway also no pt…
den juz nw reached hm.. i was feelin tired.. nt physically… bt i tin mentally.. sitin in front of e desk i reali wish i could focus.. 2mrw is patho quiz.. so i nd 2 focus.. bt den i dn knw y.. i juz cnt..
had a great urge 2 cry.. strange feelin.. n e worst feelin is wen u wanted 2 cry bt den yet nt able 2 cry… was listenin 2 e song i knw wil induce my tears… yes it did help me a bit.. after all tis song is stil e 1 which touches me… bt den i dn knw y it doesnt allow 2 cry out loud enough 2 ease my feelin…
i stil feel v terrible..
i seldom hav tis kin of feelin..
startin class for 1 mth.. i had always been copin fine.. at least i had been reali tryin my best 2 stay on my best condition.. even thou i knw i cnt take it.. i wil stay do my best.. each time i felt i cnt.. i wil always make myself feel better n positive 2 tel myself.. i can.. i can do it… n go on..
i dn knw.. is it e best way?? i hope tat 2day mood is juz transitional..
i hope tat i cn overcome everytin…
i hope tat i wil b back 2 e bubbly gal in a while..
i knw i had been doin v gd w myself… copin w watever stress tat cm in my life..
bt den i reali do nt knw.. wen wil it b e day i reali cnt take it..
i dn wan tis day 2 cm…
afterall… cryin dn seem 2 b an easy task 4 me nw… mayb.. i also dn hav e time 2 cry.. hai..
i wil sure take everytin as it cm.. i hope wkends cm fast.. n reali hopefuli i cn enjoy w ease..
bless me… bring back all my smiles…
back 2 books.. gd luck for my patho…
