into pooh’s world…………

terrible terrible week.. hai.. e mood is stil nt pickin up yet…..hai.. reali tin its all sch related.. copin mechanism is reali nt gd enough.. or im juz 2 tired…

hai.. pple always say tat im v free 1.. cn online lah.. cn update blog.. bt den no1 knws tat tis is 1 of my copin mechanism.. hai.. if without blog 2 let out my feelin i tin i would die…

finali waited til sat.. bt den dn hav e sense of relief.. coz so mani tins nd 2 b done.. wel.. i juz wan 2 make sure presentation wil b done soon..

anyway 2day woke up ard 9 plus.. wel.. its considered quite early for me.. coz i usually wil try nt 2 wake up so early.. wel.. i also dn knw y.. mayb e stress is makin me nt 2 slp wel..

after i woke up.. i was readin thru health assessment.. felt tat i had nt done enough 4 tis mod.. wel.. so had 2 put in a bit of effort.. hai..

den left 2 lib.. was tinin since wil b meet them ard 4 plus so go lib for a while den juz nice cn meet them.. wel.. so was in lib cont e health assessment.. finali finished e part on thorax.. so glad.. coz its my 1st time managed 2 finish e HA chapter.. den decided i had 2 cont e presentation stuffs.. hai.. so tiring 2 read thru e materials n had 2 put them into e layout is worst..  wel.. bt den no matter wat stil hav 2 do ma… so juz endure..

den gt a msg… wel.. e msg give me e perception tat he dn feel like gg.. wel.. a few msgs juz cm along.. n i had e tinin tat he is juz cookin up excuses.. 2 entertain me.. or in fact juz wan 2 bluff me.. dn tin he wil read all these.. bt den if he happen 2… i would 1 2 say… ‘no nd 2 do tis.. coz playin ard w words is nt gg 2 make me feel any better..( in fact…. worst…. ) tats nt u… juz b straight forward.. tats wat i always like abt u….’ wel.. coz e msg r juz funi.. nt e usual msg tat he wil sen.. hai.. anyway i knew it..

den shortly after bro called.. sayin tat we shall postponed e meetin til 8 plus.. wel.. im nt hopin of wat… juz hope 2 go out n hav a break or a drink…

since hav 2 wait.. so i juz stayed at lib… at least cn do sm stuffs while waitin.. so e time juz past 1 hr by 1 hr…. den soon its 8… wel.. i was reali tired.. i tin i had managed 2 complete 60% of my presentation bah.. coz so much info juz went in n out of my mind… reali taxin.. wel.. stil no1 msg or call me back.. is every1 so busy tat they hav forgotten me?? forgt tat im stil waitin…

wel.. anyway i msg sis 2 ask her if meetin stil on.. wel.. gt a bad omen tat meetin might b off.. wel.. true enough.. she reply me tat we hav 2 meet another time..

wel.. i was totally disappointed… nt particular at any1… mayb coz tinin tat after hard wk i could hav a gd break… its also bcoz.. i was tinin tis would b e last time i would play hard.. coz comin up, there is reali 2 much tins 2 do… dn tin wil b able 2 spend time for enjoyin.. hai .. in e end.. hai tis is wat is called.. ‘e more u expect e more disappointed u feel… ‘

hai.. dn tin any1 wil understand hw i feel.. wel in fact i dn nd any1 2 understd.. on e way home i was reali depressed n sad.. wel.. anyway.. im nt gg 2 organise for anytin liao… i also dn hav much effort 2 do it liao.. 2 tired liao..

wel luckily e moment i reached hm i felt better.. e thought process juz nd 2 b adjusted… wel.. at least e moment i reached hm til nw.. i had nt touched e books.. a break for me.. facin them for 7hrs… i guess tat enough..

study is so tiring.. i juz hope tat i could sustain… jia you.. tis could b e only way 2 motivate myself 2 go on..

i hope tat i wil stil b able 2 maintain mentally stable at e end of tis semster.. coz im reali scared… if my copin is gg 2 fail.. i wil juz collapse… i dn wan tat 2 happen.. coz its afterall nt worth.. hai..