into pooh’s world…………

第一次你陪我坐着
我的手心是空空的
我知道那些简讯声你努力藏著
还怕我难过
不追问到底为什么
是我最后的温柔
想笑着附和说分开是好的
但我们却怎么一起哭了

我舍不得
可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得
只是该停了
没有我你要好好的
我舍不得
最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的
错了就错了
不用担心我
我不爱你了

至少你记忆里的我是微笑的
亲爱的有你牵著我的那些日子
真的好快乐

..我..走..了..

a nice song recommended by a friend.. alamak… bt its a sad song… wel.. bt enjoyed e song…. k i wil go n learn nex time i sing 4 u k k k ..

13^th nov

Tis is definitely nt e 1^st time we cried 2gther.. I tin if I had nt rem wrongly.. when we were child.. we had definitely cried 2gther mani time.. ammm over wat incident I nv rem… mayb e most recent 1 would b .. during ah Gong’s funeral bah.. tat would b e onli memory I would had on us cryin 2gther…

Last Nite.. its e 1^st time we hug 2gther n cried… …. ….

I tin we reali spent 10min cryin??

I am reali glad I was ard wen u needed e shoulder.. my shoulder nice rt?? I seldom offered it 2 any1 u knw?? Its bcoz its u.. tats y u got it..

Wel… I dn knw if I had did any help.. bt den I tin I reali did rt?? At least sm1 2 cry w u wil make u cry out louder???? Juz cried… rem.. I say.. as long as it makes u feel gd.. juz cry out..

Sm1 said tat he always lookin 4ward 2 readin my blog.. amm I tin bcoz e past 1 mth blog involved 2 much of him.. tats y he enjoyed bah.. wel wel.. hope after everytin u stil hav e habit of reading my blog 2 keep urself updated w my stuffs…

Oh.. tokin abt blog.. I received an Sms frm Aileen tis pm… she was so sweet.. she actuali did read my blog… n knwin tat my rollercoaster emotion.. she actuali drop me a v simple sms.. n it juz shwin her care n concerns plus blessins.. so sweet n nice..

I juz smilez wen I saw e msg.. n instantly I felt tat a simple msg could brighten my tired day n bring a smilez 2 my face.. n make me realized n felt..

Hapiness is actuali v simple… n its juz so impt 2 count on our blessins.. so I 4warded e msg 2 a few of my frien whom I care.. wel… at least most of them responded except tis particular 1.. anyway oreoli knew it.. he is always like tis.. so . nvm.. cnt b bothered 2 much..

Finali… bro’s prob is settled.. reali glad..

I reali hope tat u had found ur happiness.. n reali happi.. n of coz I wil b v v hapi for u…

Dn wori.. sis wil always b ard… n I promised.. I wil also b v hapi..

My dear sis… I knw u r also v hapi nw.. reali glad for u 2..

Knw tat u also hav ur own prob 2 handle.. I knw u cn handle it wel.. bt dn 4gt.. sis wil always b smwhere out here 4 u.. juz a call away..

of coz this 1 mth plus 2 mani tins happened..n of coz it juz happened 2 fast… wel..

B it gd or bad.. I tin we should stil b thxful ..

Thx for e chance 2 make us go thru hardship…. Sadness… unhappiness.. in order 2 realised n appreciate e beauty of happiness… contentment… n gratitude ……….

How mani a time we wanted more… a bit more money.. a bit more this .. a bit more tat.. n we actuali miss out those simple tins.. tat we had always taken it for granted..

Hapiness… smtime tat u dn hav 2 use money 2 pay for…. Such a simple tin yet.. we nv realized it had always b ard us.. juz tat we nv stop 2 look at it n reali appreciate its presence????

Tis moment.. I am hapi.. contented… of coz at time I stil fin a bit bit down.. bt den.. I wil nt 4gt n neglect e happiness tat is juz ard e corner.. easily accessible which onli depend urself whether u wan 2 gt it or nt..

15^th nov (5am)

Last nite 3 of us decided to go for drinks.. I had promised them I wil accompany them no matter wat… I knw they r all nt hapi…

We decided on Halo Bar.. near.. a place we cn drink n also sing (4 me lo)… so we started drinkin.. hai.. I hate beers.. bt den.. nvm I juz drink.. in e end.. I was challenged by them.. so in order to make them hapi.. I drank… in fact.. tis is e 1^st time in my life drinkin so much beer.. I hate e taste of beer.. wel.. bt den.. I drank… 2 them its nt a lot. bt 2 me.. its consider quite a lot… haiz..

Anyway I dn knw y.. is it bcoz I see them so sad.. or its juz e effect e beer.. I became sad.. I broke dwn… tears juz rolled dwn my cheeks.. rolled rolled.. dwn.. I totally broke dwn.. felt so sad.. hai.. cried bcoz of..

-          I tin mainly e beers…

-          Den.. my closest friend n cousin…were sad… even u all dn nd 2 tel.. I knw..

-          Becoz of… juz a bit… yes I didn’t wan 2 deny.. sm part of memories cm back.. or wen I was listenin 2 e song.. sm flashed back… I knw definitely not bcoz of him.. (broken my promises… coz I reali did cried a bit coz H.. ) nobody believed me.. im sad.. bt den I believed myself..

Wel.. bt its so shiok 2 cry.. mayb coz of e beer.. bt.. pls dn do it 2 often.. e taste of e beer Is reali.. nt nice..

Wel… we left e pub ard 1 plus.. n we did reali crazy tin..mayb wil onli do wen u r drunk or high..

We juz sat along e road.. (of coz no1 ard.. ) n sing… of coz I sung mani mani song.. mani meaningful 1.. n once again I broke dwn in tears.. reali cried.. for no reason.. bt certain song reali cn make u cry like mad… hai, stupid.. bt den.. we were all 2 tired 2 move.. in e end.. we left e place at 2 plus… didn’t knw where 2 go.. wen 2 mac.. was so tired bt den.. didn’t knw wat 2 do..

in e end.. causally msg a friend.. knwin tat he would nt cm.. bt den wel.. in e end he came 2 fetch us.. we reali appreciated his act.. smmore he said he was on bed liao…so sori for disturbin.. bt den.. wel..a big thx frm al of us.. thx u….

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i am reali tired.. bt den no matter wat.. i was sure stay by u all wen u all nd me… Wel… I rem i juz wan my friends 2 b v v v v hapi.. promised.. k k k  k k

Yeah its e last day of sch… for e sem….

bt it also means… due dates for assignment n exam is on e way…..

wel wel..

APN assignment.. i had finali started.. no matter wat i hav 2 start smwhere.. i juz hope it would b completed soon..

Had received e Patho assignment ytd… its nt a difficult piece of work… bt den it definitely needs a lot of info..

Health assessment… eventuali we stil hav our practical exam.. ;( sad…

all these 2 b completed within 2 weeks.. bt y i dn feel e urgency in me.. die die..

mayb.. takin tins 2 easy… helps? i reali dn knw…

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mani tins happen.. bt not on me…thxfully… is on pple ard me… smmore those people who r closed 2 me n of coz.. whom i cared..

feel sad for them at times.. bt den.. for all these matters at heart i cnt help.. e onli i could do is offerin my ears.. or even shoulder if any1 needs..

i was glad tat im out of tis kin of …… at least at tis v v v v moment.. im hapi..

Being single is nt gg 2 kill me..

i enjoy e freedom i had..

carefree ….

trouble less…..

i am thxful..

who knws tat some1 out there wil appeared 1 fine day.. or even not.. i would care much.. i wan 2 enjoy myself..

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last nite… 1st time 4 of us chat online.. ammm actuali .. was chatin initially.. bt den.. halfway thru.. they gt wild n siao… as usual.. being e onli gal.. i got bullied by them.. wahahahahaha..

doin Boliao stuffs.. bt den.. it makes me laugh… wahahahaha.. like wat bro say.. i was hapi…

ya true.. smtime we actuali forgotten e simpliest tin could make us happy…

im reali thxful… e friends i had although nt always givin me e tins i wanted.. bt den wen i reali need them.. im sure i wil gt smtin frm them.. even its juz a priceless smilez… tats enough…
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sm1 told me… a good frien is…

Some 1 whom u sit face 2 face n have Nothing to talk to but yet DO NOT feel uneasy…DO not have 2 constantly think abt wat 2 talk 2 feel e silent gaps…

v v true… i tin i had found a few.. juz makin sure lo…

anyway… life is wonderful.. not onli bcoz of others.. bt bcoz of me..

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lastly.. bro say he is fine.. actuali he had RECOVERED… i was doubtful initially bt den i believed u.. n i cn sense e bubbly bro is back soon.. hw wonderful…

no matter wat Being hapi is e most impt…

tis does not onli apply 2 bro.. bt 2 all my friends..

lovin u… Jia you..

dearest

Noun:

a beloved person; used as terms of endearment

adj:

beloved or loved

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u knw i cnt expressed myself clearly face 2 face…. i would do it in words then…..

i tin 1st time we had such a talk..

u knw i dn like 2 talk face 2 face.. bt smhw i had 2.. bcoz avoidin is nt e solution.. in fact i wanted 2 hide for another day.. bt 2 b fair.. i tin i shouldnt.. wel at least i knw im at fault.. bt 2 certain extent.. u r in e wrong 2… wat does it mean tat ‘i dn wan u all 2 wori abt me..’

‘ tats y i dn wan 2 tel u all wat happend.. ‘ eventuali.. we wil stil gt 2 knw.. so?? u mean my a call away is juz for shw? wel.. eventuali.. i felt i wil nt b needed..(i knw im wrong.. bt smtime i juz hav tis kin of feelin) anyway… i wil hav 2 learn abt tis..

i knw u r agitated.. bt i nv expect 2 hear tat frm u..stand by me..

u knw tat no matter wat happen i wil stil stand by u.. no matter hw much i could feel for her n understand on her part.. i nv agree wat she did was right… bt wat u said…i dn feel its fair 4 me.. wen u say tat others nv speak up for her bt oni me.. i felt so Wronged.. wat cn i say?? hate?? dislike?? u knw e rationale part of me would nv say tis… b fair 2 me….. i was reali upset more than angry…

 of coz.. mayb i had nt been understanding enough.. i knw u had been v trueful 2ward me.. so.. hope u wil continue.. actuali i was reali touched wen u say u were worried for me..  my friend all my effort had nt been wasted.. u knw.. 2 me u r more than friend..

wen u asked e ABC question n ask me made a choice.. u knw actuali. i nv wan 2 make any choice.. totally unfair for me.. u knw wat ans i wil give.. den? ?

hai…its rainin n me stil sitin here writin all my thoughts n feelin.. its all bcoz of u.. i actuali dn wan 2 accept e apology… bt den.. i had 2 Bah.. didnt wan 2 make u feel bad.. bt… i am actuali disappointed n upset…bt u wil stil share it all w me rt?

pple muz b tinin wats wrong w tis woman…

angry?? sad?? unhapi?? or…

frankly speakin…

nt angry.. wat 4 b angry.. coz pple hav rt 2 do tin they wan.. dn nd 2 take me into consideration.. wel.. i wil learnt on it…

sad… wat 4?? bt mayb coz both r e pple i care.. so…… wel.. nvm… tis i wil also learnt on… n let u all do e tins u all wan n tin is best for u all..

unhapi… dn knw… mayb.. coz i tin 2 much.. so tats y dn feel hapi.. n wen i dn feel hapi.. i juz dn wan 2 entertain any1…

am i wrong?? i dn knw.. bt den.. i tin all of us r nt wrong… juz viewin tin at diff perspective…

e bad tin abt me .. is im 2 emotional.. i knw it… i also hate it..bt den… diff for me 2 change… wel.. tats me.. mayb i also dn wan 2 change bah.. hai..

apart frm tat… being 2 nice 2 pple is also no gd… i always tot caring should b like tis.. bt.. NO>>>>> its nt… dn b stupid gal…

wel.. anyway i tin mani tins gg 2 changed.. whether i like it or nt.. i hav accept it.. mayb tis is wat i nd tin 2 think abt..

ytd i was isolatin myself.. (happen 2 b hp no batt also)

after sch went for workout.. n had a great dinner w e gals… wen im w others i dn nd 2 tin abt anytin.. bt den wen im alone again.. thoughts juz cm back.. hai.. v sian.. mayb 2day i shall juz do e same.. off e hp.. n concentrate 2 do my stuffs… wel.. a day juz for myself…

as for others.. i dn knw.. juz go n do tins u all wan bah.. as long as u all r hapi… i wil b hapi 4 u…

rainin again.. e past few days kept rainin.. hai.. smhw smtime i dn like rainy day..

2day suddenly felt tired or mayb sad?? i actuali a bit confused.. dn knw wat happend.. anyway.. i hope a gd nite slp everytin wil b ok…

Had gt back e APN assignment finali… wel.. expected.. i tin i gt e lowest among all.. bt den.. frankly speakin.. im nt sad for tis.. i actuali felt v gradful..  i tin i deserve e grades.. coz i reali didnt put in enough effort for tat piece of wk.. e onli tin tat wil make me sad is.. im guilty.. of coz.. no pt cryin over spilled milk.. rem. i tel myself.. no cryin.. yes.. im holdin wel.. juz bless me.. anyway e nex piece of wk.. i hope n i wil reali put in effort k.. jia you… i promised..

sm1 told me he is feelin stress.. at work.. hai.. poor tin.. bt den i cn reali help ntin.. bt juz b ard 2 listen lor.. hopefuli it does reali helps a bit…

bt den.. i wan 2 say… no matter hw stress … work stil nd 2 b done.. wel.. u knw.. i wil juz b a call away….. even i cnt help much…

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i heard tat a ex colleague juz delivered a baby.. n e baby had sm heart prob.. n gg for op… hai. . . poor tin.. it den reminds me of another ex colleague.. it happened 4 yrs ago.. a reali sad case.. anyway.. no matter juz wish tat everytin is ok.. wel.. take care..

i also hav 2 take care.. so i cn do my work properly.. wel wel.. jia you myself……

a nice song

位置 by 黄丽玲

我依然沉溺在回忆的海底
就快没了呼吸
突然听见自己心跳如此清晰
如今还活着你的过去
我曾经相信会遇到那个人
或许能把你代替
降温的冷空气留着你的气息
我对于遗忘还无能为力
爱还为你保留了位置
就算你背影如今已渐渐的消失
oh 爱是无法改变的位置
如果能再一次我还是这样的坚持
爱还为你保留了位置
就算我的心还依然充满了未知
oh 爱是无法改变的位置
失去你只是残忍的事实

我曾经相信会遇到那个人
或许能把你代替
降温的冷空气留着你的气息
我对于遗忘还无能为力
爱还为你保留了位置
就算你背影如今已渐渐的消失
oh 爱是无法改变的位置
如果能再一次我还是这样的坚持
爱还为你保留了位置
就算我的心还依然充满了未知
oh 爱是无法改变的位置
失去你只是残忍的事实
也许某个早晨当阳光洒进来
我会突然醒来
把位置空出来不再为你而等待
爱还为你保留了位置
就算我的心还依然充满了未知
oh 爱是无法改变的位置
失去你只是残忍的事实
多希望这是别人的故事

wkend always passed v fast.. or is it bcoz i had enjoyed 2 much tats y….

thurs nite was v tirin… went out for a chat… i enjoyed e tok.. reali… although i didnt tok much.. keke.. reach hm at 3am…. n zzzzzzzz

fri luckily didnt hav 2 wake up v v early.. anyway spent e day in hosp doin HA for patients.. hai.. reali tirin coz we r on our toes most of e time.. i tin.. e life in sch make me unable 2 stand for long.. hai.. useless… last time.. work for 12 hrs without sittin no prob.. bt nw.. anyway.. hand on was fun at time.. bt den.. in e ward was hot n tirin.. nearly zZZzzzzZ.. wel.. it onli perks me wen its 5… keke.. met up w bro n e rest.. as usual.. undecisive.. eventuali juz fin a place 2 had dinner.. keke.. anytin watever…. den… once again.. KTV>>>>>>>>

aiyo.. bt den i also gian 2 sing..bt y.. is it bcoz im 2 tired.. or juz e system is 2 diff 2 sing.. i dn tin i enjoyed e singin.. nonetheless… we step out of e KTV at 2am.. n every1 dn seems 2 b tired.. bt.. im mentally a bit gone.. so we decided 2 proceed 2 e 24hrs TCC>>>>> yeah.. eatin n drinkin again.. n of coz nt forgtin.. my fav photo takin.. wahahaha.. i tin it was fun.. n of coz b entertained by e uncle.. keke.. reali cn laugh……

who knws wen time 2 go.. it started rainin.. we r ‘trapped’ in TCC… eventuali.. left e place at 4 plus.. n by bro sent each n every of us hm.. its oreoli 6… we r all v tired liao loh..

wel wel.. sat was totally wasted coz me zl reali nua…. lazy mah..

sun.. i had no choice bt 2 wake up slight early all thx 2 serene.. hai.. in 4 hrs time i had com 3 places.. hai.. who knws.. at e last stop… e dreadly tin happend…

it started rainin.. so w my umbrella in 1 hand.. hp on e other.. i was happily walkin n chitin w bro… den b4 i realised.. i was kneelin on e road.. sob sob.. v v v v embrased… bt apart frm tat.. it was so painful.. e nex moment i realised… i started bleedin.. n expected.. its disfigured.. sob sob.. tis wil take at least 1 week 2 heal… so.. no shorts for e time being.. hai..

of coz i cnt blame bro.. coz im juz 2 carelessness.. hai.. so .. pls walk w care if nt.. wil b like me.. sob sob..

满园玫瑰我以为找到我那一朵
认真爱了却狠狠刺伤我的双手
责备什麽人也没有用
玫瑰都红难免看错

望着天空爱是风活在童话里头
小王子说有些事流浪过才会懂
原来每颗心都有个洞
找不到真爱会一直寂寞

我但愿有一个人在等我

在属於我的612星球

好让我忍着痛也愿意往下走

不快乐至少要有梦

一定会有一个人在等我

无条件拥抱着我的所有

想遇见我还要翻越多少山丘

花别谢太快请你等等我
擦干眼泪一个人漂流在这宇宙
小王子说爱一定开在某个角落
不想相爱的人那麽多
我会幸福吗在什麽时候

i knw i had been 2 sensitive over mani tins.. i wil reali try my best.. i wil..

e onli tin is trust me… 

i enjoyed e talk..

e time spent..

e most impt… i knw wat it all meant.. 

hope u knw wat im tinin.. nv ask 4 anytin…

promised.. i wil do my best…

tin on ur part..

rem.. juz trust me.. k….